KiddDisaster

I am being washed away by the water, similar to the way it happens your name washes away when you write it on the sand. & The smell of salt lingers on my skin, and I can still taste your morning coffee on my lips. Seaweed wraps around my legs, while the ocean kisses my toes. I no longer have a home, and the ocean has decided to adopt me as one of it's own. She pulls me in close and then lets me go, but as soon as I almost escape, she pulls me back in for more. My teeth chatter as I begin to lose feeling in my face. I can no longer feel you around me, embracing my waist. I kiss the stars goodnight as the ocean slowly pulls me under.

Broken girl, pretty girl, why are you crying? You say your fine, the cuts up your arm say otherwise. You say he didn't love you, you were too big of a size. but he never realized you were the best thing to ever happen to him. He never realized you loved him, limb from limb, every fiber in your body was his. Three years later, you still cry. Those tears, they never dried. You ran away to live under the constellations in the sky, praying every night that you would die. He said he didn't care, "Go ahead commit!" he screamed. You dreamed he would care about you, he never did. Walking away with a suitcase full of memor

And I'm tired of waiting for things to stop falling apart, I wish I could go home, back into your arms Where I felt safe almost all of the time, and I wish that you would stop saying goodbye and just tell me dear everything's fine This divorce isn't happening, we'll stay for the kids I'm smiling while everything's falling apart, and I hate to see everyone so fucking happy, while i'm falling apart and I cant pick myself up These tears won't stop, my voice won't stop shaking I need you here right now, but you're way too busy to realize that i'm too fucking depressed to go on with life and not give a shit It's hard to just

Love yourself, it's what I've always been told. From the top of your head, to the tip of your toes. God only knows, what I think of myself. You feed the fire; make me hate myself more. I never could live in my own body, I never could look at myself in the mirror. I feel as though I've swallowed the ocean, and this weight is holding me down. It's not necessarily the weight that bothers, but the thought of being helpless. Not being able to save myself, and having to wait for someone to come along. I never wanted to be a Fiona waiting for her shrek, Or a Rapunzel waiting for her Prince Flynn. Independence was what I stri

Walls, built to protect me from everyone, built to isolate, built to show how strong I am. When in reality, I'm weak. Doors, millions of them, different opportunities, different directions, where do I go? I'm lost with out you. Guide me, hold my hand, show me the way out. don't let go, or i'll never be found. Reassure me, everything is okay. Show me right from wrong, tell me you're here to stay. please don't fuck me over. If heaven is what everyone desires, and hell is the punishment, where do you fit? I desire you, you hurt me. I'm stuck in between both worlds. Walls, they're built to keep y

The past. She sits on my shoulder like a lost companion. She makes me reminisce & think of all the wrong I've ever done. She sings sweet words, they make me miss you. She caresses my neck, tells me things will fix themselves. Time heals all wounds, she says. I'm awaiting the time she speaks of, although he's always late. She says he has plans in store for me, a whole life that is waiting to be revealed. She holds me close, and asks why has self-harm always been my best friend. I tell her she's the only one who hasn't left me. And when she stabs me, I know I deserved it. the night sky embraces me, as I refuse to fall. I think of yo

Clocks tick every second of the day, Candle light burns the night away. I miss you, but there's nothing left to say. The nights last an eternity without you, the silence in the air doesn't help either. Your name appears everywhere now, from the moment I awaken to the moment I slip into a light slumber. I wish you were here with me to share the night, but all we used to do was fight. Why couldn't I have made this right? I hate this, I hate this. The moon disappears, my eyes let the first rays of the sun enter. Eating is no longer in my mind, neither is sleeping. I need you in my life again. Did I really fuck up thi

It doesn't hurt to see you anymore, it doesn't hurt to walk the same ground as you, No more sickness to my stomach, no more jealousy when those girls are around. Tears don't fall for you, Sadness isn't because of you. Selfishness is out of my system, I feel as if I no longer need you. Your ignorance no longer bothers me, and your absence of words no longer affects me. Smiles aren't because of you, Happiness comes from within me, and when someone calls, I don't expect it to be you. Text messages are text messages, butterflies don't appear with the sound of your name, your smile no longer makes me smile, your voice

Inbetween life and death, I met you. You changed me from the inside out, you made me feel beautiful. I thought to myself you could be the one.. we kissed as every star stared at us, they looked down and smiled. Who could believe this happiness? We lay side by side, in silence. Comets flew past our eyes, I could see the spark light. Shooting star after shooting star, I wondered how long we'd be here. I smiled thinking about the future, you drowned me with thoughts of the past. You brought me through hell, and showed me what heaven was like. You pulled me in closer, I felt our heart beats synchronize.